My
future was before me, interminable
I
had the time, I thought, to get it right.
Time
to become the woman I want to be,
So
nobody ever again could throw away
My
secret treasures, or move them
So
I have to ask where they are.
Over
and over I tell myself,
This
time, I will put them where
I
will never forget. Over and over,
I
lose them again, remembering
In
dreams, only to awaken
Tantalized
by the forgotten knowledge.
I
thought that others
Hid
from me what they knew,
Watching
my confusion with\sly smiles.
But
I see it was only me all along
Whose
trickery left me
Baffled
and empty handed.
For
there is no one else here –
Only
me, and still, I sometimes
Cannot
find my things.
To
change, to find a special place
For
what I want to keep,
Now
is all the time I have.