PRESENT TENSE

My
future was before me, interminable

I
had the time, I thought, to get it right.

 

Time
to become the woman I want to be,

So
nobody ever again could throw away

My
secret treasures, or move them

So
I have to ask where they are.

Over
and over I tell myself,

This
time, I will put them where

I
will never forget. Over and over,

I
lose them again, remembering

In
dreams, only to awaken

Tantalized
by the forgotten knowledge.

 

I
thought that others

Hid
from me what they knew,

Watching
my confusion with\sly smiles.

 

But
I see it was only me all along

Whose
trickery left me

Baffled
and empty handed.

 

For
there is no one else here –

Only
me, and still, I sometimes

Cannot
find my things. 

 

To
change, to find a special place

For
what I want to keep,

Now
is all the time I have.